Category: Herx

When it rains, it pours

When it rains, it pours

I received the second set of test results for Toprak, my 5 year old boy. Unfortunately, the test results show that he also has Bartonella. I was hoping that besides the HHV6, he will not have any other issues. Bartonella is a co-infection of Lyme disease. It is a tick bourne […]

I have energy!!!

I have energy!!!

I woke up with some energy this morning. I almost feel normal at the moment. I know it is temporary but i am still happy. I almost forgot what is like not having herxheimer reaction. I can’t complain right now. Funny thing, I just want to clean, do laundry and […]

If the flowers bloom every spring

If the flowers bloom every spring

My life in seasons If my life was described in seasons, I can say I feel stuck in the middle of the winter right now. There is a snow storm and my only shelter is a tent. I am cold, wet, uncomfortable and distressed. I don’t know how long this […]

What about the future!

What about the future!

Losing Purpose Yes I am a fighter and I am strong. That could be a good thing or a bad thing, when fighting a disease like mine. Good thing for obvious reasons. Bad thing for not so obvious reason. See strong people are used to having a goal, accomplishing tasks […]

I don’t know what you see!

I don’t know what you see!

I know what I feel… …physically, when herxing. I can’t even lift my fingers. Pushing down the keys on my laptop actually hurts. I can’t get up while laying without the help of another person. Walking is extremely painful. My body is aching all around. My muscles feel very weak. […]

Learning to ask for help

Learning to ask for help

I am independent, I can do this by myself If you have Lyme disease and you start treatment, you quickly learn that asking others for help becomes part of your life. I must admit it is not an easy thing to do. Before my treatment started, I was a very […]

Experiencing Herxheimer reaction For the First Time

Experiencing Herxheimer reaction For the First Time

I took my abart for the first time. After my AM dose I went to a dentist appointment, by the time I came back to my hotel room I was exhausted. I was hurting and weak. My kids were frustrated and wasn’t understanding why mommy couldn’t move, play or take […]