I received the second set of test results for Toprak, my 5 year old boy. Unfortunately, the test results show that he also has Bartonella. I was hoping that besides the HHV6, he will not have any other issues. Bartonella is a co-infection of Lyme disease. It is a tick bourne disease as well, which means he will go through Herxheimer reaction just like me. I am feeling down about the whole thing. I was almost at the point of acceptance of what my daughter is experiencing. Now I have to coupe with this.
I don’t even know how long it will take my daughter to get rid off this monster. I am witnessing what it is putting her through. At least she is old enough that I am able to talk her through this. My boy, although he is only 2 years younger than my daughter, is too young to understand the situation. This is just too much for me right now. I can handle all the pain I am going through. Watching my children go through it is very difficult to watch as a parent.
Lately, I am losing my bright attitude. I am just going to pretend that I am in a good mood and I have my spirits up. Until it really happens. When it rains, it pours. On the other hand rain makes things grow. I know we will all come out of this battle as better people.