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Revolving around the sun for the 32nd time

Revolving around the sun for the 32nd time

Birthday Preparation Quote from my 7 year old: I want to throw a birthday party for mommy and I want it to be perfect. She always makes sure our birthday parties are perfect, so I want hers to be perfect. This is how my sister, who is visiting from Turkey, […]

Let’s talk about Lyme disease

Let’s talk about Lyme disease

Couple of Facts About Lyme Lyme disease is a seriously complex multi-system inflammatory disease caused by a bacteria called Borrelia burgdorferi (Bb). This highly sophisticated bacteria is transmitted through a tick bite. Lyme disease usually comes with coinfections. It takes years to treat along with tons of medication and money. […]

Standing by with anxiety

Standing by with anxiety

Frustration Watching my daughter frustrated, because she has these nonstop headaches, stomach aches, chest pain, ringing in the ear and fatigue. She feels everybody around her ignores her problem. When she mentions her problem to an adult, she expects him/her to provide her a solution. Instead what she hears is, either “drink […]

I have energy!!!

I have energy!!!

I woke up with some energy this morning. I almost feel normal at the moment. I know it is temporary but i am still happy. I almost forgot what is like not having herxheimer reaction. I can’t complain right now. Funny thing, I just want to clean, do laundry and […]

If the flowers bloom every spring

If the flowers bloom every spring

My life in seasons If my life was described in seasons, I can say I feel stuck in the middle of the winter right now. There is a snow storm and my only shelter is a tent. I am cold, wet, uncomfortable and distressed. I don’t know how long this […]

What about the future!

What about the future!

Losing Purpose Yes I am a fighter and I am strong. That could be a good thing or a bad thing, when fighting a disease like mine. Good thing for obvious reasons. Bad thing for not so obvious reason. See strong people are used to having a goal, accomplishing tasks […]

I don’t know what you see!

I don’t know what you see!

I know what I feel… …physically, when herxing. I can’t even lift my fingers. Pushing down the keys on my laptop actually hurts. I can’t get up while laying without the help of another person. Walking is extremely painful. My body is aching all around. My muscles feel very weak. […]

Learning to ask for help

Learning to ask for help

I am independent, I can do this by myself If you have Lyme disease and you start treatment, you quickly learn that asking others for help becomes part of your life. I must admit it is not an easy thing to do. Before my treatment started, I was a very […]

Friends and Lyme

Friends and Lyme

I traveled to Virginia Beach on March 21st with the intention of returning to D.C. on March 24th. I was hoping this little trip would become the spring break getaway my children deserve. Was I wrong on that one! The day after I arrived in Virginia Beach I started to […]

Experiencing Herxheimer reaction For the First Time

Experiencing Herxheimer reaction For the First Time

I took my abart for the first time. After my AM dose I went to a dentist appointment, by the time I came back to my hotel room I was exhausted. I was hurting and weak. My kids were frustrated and wasn’t understanding why mommy couldn’t move, play or take […]