I have energy!!!

I woke up with some energy this morning. I almost feel normal at the moment. I know it is temporary but i am still happy. I almost forgot what is like not having herxheimer reaction. I can’t complain right now. Funny thing, I just want to clean, do laundry and finish household chores. You’d think I would want to go out to sight-see  Not me, I am a mommy and I just want my house clean and that is what makes me happy 🙂

I will be starting some more medications today, so I know I will probably get sick again. Enjoying the moment of normalness (I know it is probably not a word) is all I can do.

UPDATE: My energy lasted only 1.5 hours that day. I was able to pick up my kids room, do laundry and fold some clothes. Even though I ended up being extremely tired to move, I was glad I enjoyed 90 minutes of being back to normal.

 

Bu sabah enerjim var. Nerdeyse kendimi normal hissediyorum. Bu durumum gecici olmasina ragmen mutluyum. Herxheimer reaksiyonumun olmamasinin nasil birsey oldugunu unutmusum. Sikayetci olamiycam yani. Isin en komik yani, bu enerjimle sadece evimi temizlemek istiyorum. Camasirlari yikayip, ortaligi toparlamak isityorum. Hani insan zannederki sonunda biraz enerjim var evdem cikayim. Tabiki ben istemiyorum, ben bir anneyim. Tek istedigim sey bu kapali kaldigim evin temiz olmasi ve bu beni mutlu ediyor.

Bugun yeni bir iki ilaca basliyacagim. Yani biliyorumki yeniden hastalasacagim. Olsun yinede gecici olsa bile normalligimin tatidini cikariyorum.

NOT: O gun enerjim sadece 1.5 saat surdu. Bu surede cocuklarimin odasini toparladim, camasilari yikadim ve yerlestirdim. Gunun geri kalaninda cok halzisz kalmam ragmen, o 90 dakikalik normal hissetmem beni mutlu etti.