Tag: Fear

CONTRARY TO WHAT YOU BELIEVE A LYMEY CAN’T MAKE YOU SICK, BUT YOU CAN MAKE THEM SICK!!!!!

CONTRARY TO WHAT YOU BELIEVE A LYMEY CAN’T MAKE YOU SICK, BUT YOU CAN MAKE THEM SICK!!!!!

Public Service Announcement Lyme Disease cannot be contracted through casual contact. Hugging or shaking hands with a Lymey is completely safe. Even if you share a drink or food (not that we ever advise that you share food and drinks with anybody), you will be safe. Please be considerate and don’t […]

The 8 Stages of Lyme Disease Every Lymey Goes Through

The 8 Stages of Lyme Disease Every Lymey Goes Through

1- Dark Ages: Confusion and Doubt Phase You are confused you know you have  multiple problems and you are going from doctor to doctor. Yet you come back home with generic diagnosis. Fibromyalgia, Rheumatoid Arthritis, Migraine and with prescriptions that is only trying to address your symptoms not the underlying issue. After […]

Avoiding words…

Avoiding words…

I stopped writing because I became afraid to face my emotions. When I write I let out my true feelings and these days I am not ready to face them. I feel very conflicted. Too much is going on. Then again which lymey doesn’t have too much going on in […]

Pain

Pain

Funny fact pain is the one thing that is capable of strengthening your belief in the higher power. You feel helpless, cornered and not in control of what is happening to your body. The pain gets intensified by the level of helplessness you feel and when you reach that point […]

Getting ready for my oral surgery

Getting ready for my oral surgery

Tomorrow is the day. I will be getting 3 implants tomorrow. I’ve waited a long time for this. This a fairly simple, little bit painful surgery. As usual being a lymey, it doesn’t come to us that easy. See Lyme likes to attack my body wherever it is the weakest. […]

When it rains, it pours

When it rains, it pours

I received the second set of test results for Toprak, my 5 year old boy. Unfortunately, the test results show that he also has Bartonella. I was hoping that besides the HHV6, he will not have any other issues. Bartonella is a co-infection of Lyme disease. It is a tick bourne […]

1000 words I want to say, but I won’t

1000 words I want to say, but I won’t

1000 Words I won’t say I want to talk about my disappointments, but I won’t. I am too embarrassed to say anything. Instead, I will talk about what my goals are. I want to talk about my expectations, but I won’t. I am too shy to say anything. Instead, I […]

Somewhat good news from the doctor

Somewhat good news from the doctor

The Visit to The Doctor Amazingly enough my little brave soul was really good during this process. Even when he got blood drawn for the first time, he did very good. Our doctor is very child friendly. The experience was pleasant and Toprak enjoyed the 2 hours we spent at the doctor’s office. Our […]

If the flowers bloom every spring

If the flowers bloom every spring

My life in seasons If my life was described in seasons, I can say I feel stuck in the middle of the winter right now. There is a snow storm and my only shelter is a tent. I am cold, wet, uncomfortable and distressed. I don’t know how long this […]

I don’t know what you see!

I don’t know what you see!

I know what I feel… …physically, when herxing. I can’t even lift my fingers. Pushing down the keys on my laptop actually hurts. I can’t get up while laying without the help of another person. Walking is extremely painful. My body is aching all around. My muscles feel very weak. […]